Who do you call at 2a.....?

Today at church we discussed connection. Everyone wants connection. Everyone searches for connection. Whether its public, social, personal or intimate; we all search for at least one of them on a daily basis. We were asked three questions: who do you belong to?, who picks you up? and who can you call?.

As I sat there during the rest of service I couldn't get the questions out of my head. I don't feel I have a single person (excluding my husband) I can call at 2a or anyone to pick me up. I'm the one people call at 2a and I'm the one who picks people up. Then when I need someone or when I need help I just sit in the dark and cry until I'm over it or I bury it and move on. Don't get me wrong I have my best friends and I have close friends but I don't feel any of them are ok with me calling at 2a.

Now that I have come to this realization I have asked myself... where do I go from here? I've only every wanted someone to be there for me like I am there for everyone else I love and care about. Its so hard to answer this and it hurts to know that my relationships are all one sided.

I know eventually God will bring me exactly what I need if I would just only ask. I just don't know what to do in the meantime.

Thanks for your time.