Haha my first blog post and its about how I'm loosing my mind. PERFECT!!
Well let's just jump right in shall we. I am a wife and mother. I have two girls that are 3 and 6 weeks. And I am completely overwhelmed!!!!!!
Between the baby who needs to eat every two hours and only be held by mommy to the toddler who does her own thing and thinks she's the boss to the husband, lets not forget him, who needs "attention" too. There's not only no time for me but I don't have energy or desire to deal with those three things everyday let alone add myself. I know myself should be first priority but heck you have kids and tell me how that works out.
If you haven't noticed by now I'm a bit emotional.. Lol.. And tonight started because my husband changed our shower head and now there's no pressure. So the one thing that was quick and gave me a little me time is now barely possible.
I'm just ready for a schedule. I am way to organized to be working off on demand. I mean I love that breastfeeding is going so well at the same time I'm barely holding on emotionally and mentally. However if I stop breastfeeding I feel like a horrible mom for not being able to nurture my child. Ugh I'm all over the place. And it only takes rocking her to sleep and watching her sleep to flip my emotions to that of someone who is blessed and so in love with her life. Oh yea and lets not forget a big cry baby.
I 150% admit that I completely and utterly forgot how it was with Nani.. Lol.. and this experience has just further proven that I am no longer bearing anymore children. I have two beautiful girls and I am completely satisfied with that.
That is all for this post. Thanks for taking this time to be with me through this emotional evening.
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